By the quiet lake, while sitting on a deserted bench, I can't help but wonder. I let the wind slightly caress my hair. Accepted as the greatest creature constructed by nature, I admire everything other than myself. How water surges, the pale color of the sky...
I can't help but wonder.
The wind brings my hair in front of me, I push it lightly to the back of my ears. I bring my glasses even closer to my face. I hold my scarf more firmly.
I can't help but wonder.
Why are you so inevitable? I can't figure out how you are still on my mind. Why can't I get rid of you? How can my brain, doing million of incredible tasks in a day, is defeated this way?
As my thoughts get heavier, I feel like my head is going to explode. While my hands are shaking a little, I scratch them into my notebook. You... and a couple of other things. Life gets more of an illusion, day by day.
When I heard the alarm, I woke up with a deep breath.
I'm confused than ever. I remember many things and forget them at the same time. My happiest moments, sad ones... The ones ended so fast, the ones felt like they'll never be over.
All the lives I've lived.
I look at the transparent screen in front of me. A logo, belonging to a company. Some things are written underneath. My name... I think that is. Poor emotional stability, anxiety and a tendency to psychological disorders related to heart diseases. 68 trials. I became unable to read. As the lives I've lived become vivid, I kind of remember why am I here.
Last 60 seconds. Please keep your eyes on the screen on top of you. Close all of your integrated sensors. While process exceeds, don't contact with anyone online, intuitively or directly. I feel someone is stressed right beside me. Actually, I know. I didn't close my hormone sensors. I know I should but I want to help her. I turn my eyes slightly to her and her scary eyes find me. I'm asking that if she is okay. I know that I can't ask it directly, I just mirror the message. When she looks at me, she can see it. It's called intuitive communication, and I don't know why I explained that. I see a hint of a smile on her face. Her stress level is going down. "Don't be afraid, everything is going to be okay." I say. "Even if it's bad, we won't remember. It will be gone." Her smile spreads.
Last 10 seconds.
I'm losing my consciousness.
When the screen resembles the steamy window I had on my little house once upon a time, I turn my head to the left.
I can't help but wonder.
Why are you so inevitable? I can't figure out how you are still on my mind. Why can't I get rid of you?
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